Therapy? Are You Crazy?

So I began, like so many other times, with a strong will.  A will to lose weight...again.  The same questions running through my head, will this time be different?  Will I be able to take it ALL off this time?  And,  have to say, after the will power wore off (which it always does) my mind was shutting down to the idea of going through the battle, AGAIN!  I say battle because that's exactly what it is for me, a BATTLE ROYAL!  Why does it have to be this hard?  It just doesn't make sense.  Every morning I would wake up trying to muster up the motivation to do the right thing by my body, and every mid-morning I would shut down to the idea, it was just TOO MUCH FOR ME.  I was getting to the point of desperation, which is so not me, I am not one of those desperate people.  Wait, I definitely was feeling it, though.

Well, one day the lightbulb went on.  No magical pill, diet, or shake, just a simple idea.  I went on our health insurance website and looked up therapists for "Eating Disorders".  What?!?  Eating disorders?!?   When I saw the words eating disorders, I absolutely did not picture myself, I pictured bulimia, anorexia, things as severe as that.  For some unknown reason, I never, NEVER thought I had an eating disorder.  Overeaters anonymous never seemed like something that pertained to me, at all!  For the life of me, I don't know why, because now it's very obvious.  I suppose anyone who has been holding on to weight, especially a lot of weight, for a large portion of their lives, needs a professional to overcome this problem.  Why didn't I do this sooner?  Well, the idea never offered to me, honestly.  Maybe God knew I wasn't ready for it?  I don't know, all I know is I am so glad the thought came to me.  Maybe I'll put the idea into another's head as they read this.

So after realizing that this is what I needed, I started.  Well, from the first meeting it is slowly becoming clear to me why I have such issues with my weight, or more importantly, why I have such issues with getting rid of it.  Obviously,  these issues are very specific to my life, as they would be for you if you sought therapy as well.  However, this has already proven to be a very interesting journey, and I am again on the road to health.  And I have decided to share the nuggets of knowledge I come upon to, perhaps, trigger some positive change in others.  I have been receiving some practical tools to slowly change bad habits, and I love practicality. 

I have to say, I am excited!  And I'm excited to share all this with you, I hope I can do some good to myself and others.